Recovery

Self-Love: The Revolution

As someone who has struggled with body acceptance for a large portion of my life, self-love  is  a revolutionary concept. When you are told so often and so frequently that who you are and what you look like is: ugly, less than, or not good enough, then telling yourself that you ARE beautiful, that you ARE worth something, that you ARE good enough, is a rebellious act.

The Taboo of Relapse

 

It was 2pm on a Tuesday, and there I was – crying, naked on my bathroom floor. I’d been there for hours, trapped in my own mind. The day had started off simply enough with me getting out of bed and getting ready to work when the inevitable, “Feed me breakfast!” battle cry rumbled loudly from my stomach.

Eating Disorder Recovery in a Culture that Validates Pretty Little Lies - Part Two

 

This submission was originally published on the blog Don't Live Small and featured in REglam Magazine

READ PART ONE HERE

We are constantly bombarded by the beauty and fashion industries’ toxic messaging that implies a woman’s main value and purpose is based on what she looks like, what she eats and how much she weighs. They endorse an unrealistic ideal and market a processed beauty that doesn’t exist.

Eating Disorder Recovery in a Culture that Validates Pretty Little Lies - Part One

This submission was originally published on the blog Don't Live Small and featured in REglam Magazine

There are many misconceptions out there about eating disorders. The most damaging is the perception that eating disorders are about vanity and wanting to look pretty. People suffering from this disease are often described as being in a self-absorbed phase that they just need to "get over”. But you can’t “just get over” it.

What Does Recovery Mean to You?

When my recovery journey began in September 2007, I thought I had a clear image of what that would look like. Seven years later, I now know that a linear recovery process does not exist. There is no real end to this journey. This revelation has given me a sense of relief, calmness, and clarity to live again.

A Love Letter to Me: Healing an Eating Disorder

This submission was originally posted on I AM THAT GIRL

Dear Allison,

I know you’ve been hurting for a long time. Silently suffering so as not to burden the ones that you love. The gorgeous smile on the outside completely masks the war that is taking place within you. I know your pain and I know your struggle and I want you to know something important:

Every Road is Different - Keep Moving Forward

Type any address into a GPS device, and you will get at least three different routes via several modes of transportation. There are many ways to get to your final destination. Recovery can be the same. There are many different roads to recovery and just like travelling; there are many paths that can lead you to your goal of a life where your eating disorder (ED) is no longer in control.

Shatter the Mirror

Dedicated to my wee bee Zoe and to wee beauties of all ages—we are all beautiful, inside and out

As of February 15th 2015, I am officially seven years, post ED. Seven Years. I started out this post by trying to think of all the auspiciousness that is associated with the number seven. 

Endure, Persist, Prevail

I just saw what feels like the seven millionth television commercial I've seen in my 44 years on this planet, asking me if I want to know the secret to perfectly clear skin, shiny hair and a flawless body. I can’t turn on the TV, listen to the radio or flip through a magazine without having some beauty or diet company tell me they can fix my flaws and transform me into a new and approved version of myself and frankly, it's getting a little silly.

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